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5月29日 Info on my latest tripSo I'm back from my trip to Manitoba. I signed six new agents. *sigh* I was hoping for eight. What don't these people understand? It doesn't cost them anything and they don't have to do any work. Really now. What's so hard about that? Come on people! I work on commission here! Oh well, can't do anything once someone has made up their minds now, can you?
I put on approximately 4,000 kms in 4 days and covered all of Manitoba. Well, I covered all 22 towns that I was supposed to go to anyway.It was really pretty driving through the small towns. I was really chicken shit to drive through Winnipeg. It's been ages since I drove through a city and so I left it til the end of my trip. Partly cause I was also waking up there and I would have tried to traverse the city during rush hour. Ah, no thank you. I'm too much of a wimp for that now. Must be old age or something, hey?
I ended up at one of our agents place at the end of my trip (Friday night). Now usually I'm lonely between 5pm and 10am the next morning as the places I visit are closed during that time. I don't know anyone and I'm tired. But knowing that I didn't have to do anything until 3pm the next day, I accepted my agent's invite to the casino (which I've never gone to one before) to watch his band play. It was nice for a change. Thank god he was a complete gentleman and babysat me for the next 24 hours. It made my trip end on a good note.
Of course, while I was there I wanted to try drinks that our local bar doesn't serve. So after the fifth drink, I figured that they might not be putting any booze in the drinks. I should have started to be at least buzzed if nothing else. I think I had seven or eight drinks but I didn't even feel them. Not that I wanted to get drunk in a strange city but buzzed would have been nice. When am I ever going to have the chance to drink and not have to think of getting up in the morning to watch Cole? Ha. That's what I thought; not very likely. Ahhh, c'est ma vie!
So after my plane ride, I was tired and just wanted to go to bed. Well, I should have realized that the horseshoe fell out of my ass because I got my first ever ticket on the way home. I have never, EVER been pulled over before and *thank god* I wasn't going my usual mach 4 or I would have lost my license for sure. The fine is only $113 so it's not like it's a big deal but now I can't say that I have a 10 year + blemish free record. I deserved it tho....
I was so happy to see Cole in the morning. He was soooooo excited! But his appearance has changed slightly since I left. He's been kissed by the sun. He has my freckles! This kid was born without a mark on him. Nothing. And now he's developing freckles on his sweet face. I never would have thought about him getting them before. So cool!
I've realized how much I love my life and everyone that's in it. Guess that's what happens when you spend a week virtually by yourself-you over think things a lot. There's nothing like my family. And when I say family I'm not just talking about my blood relatives. My "family" consists of people I can trust and trust me back. You know the ones...you can call at 3am and know they'll come running no matter what? Just like you'd do for them? I've never had this type of network before and I am greatful everyday for each and everyone of them. I just hope that I can return the favor at some point. What kind of person would I be if I didn't?
Gotta go though, supper's almost done and I'm *gasp* (shock) am STARVED! Catch ya later amios! Ciao.
5月14日 A quick note...Ok. I don't have much time to blog seeing as my computer A) doesn't let me blog and chat at thte same time and, B) somehow got locked and my mother doesn't remember the password. That leaves me blogging at work. Not that my boss cares, however it's too busy for me to do anything indepth.
So tomorrow I take the car to the city to get the brakes done, I go completely in the opposite direction and see if I can sign up 2 agents up north, then I start packing for my trip to Manitoba on Monday.
If my gf's ex can fix the computer by the time I go to MB, then I can blog, chat and keep up on things while away. If not, well then I'm shit out of luck. haha
I had a house-warming party Saturday and then brunch for everyone the next morning. I'll blog about that next cause I don't have time for it right now. But gotta go. Busy....busy....busy.
Have a good one everyone!
5月9日 Ahhh...at home.So here I sit, on my comfy new couch. I'm drinking fresh ground coffee and it's only 6:30am. I'm watching the snow slow down (yes, snow. I'll get to that later on perhaps) and thinking about how cosy it will be here for me and my son.
I'm going to the city tomorrow to get some curtians for the livingroom to match the freshly painted walls. I also want some nice stuff to hang on the walls to make the place feel more homey. I've painted the entire first floor and can't wait to do my room and Cole's. Naturally, he wants blue. Blue walls, blue curtians, blue dresser....don't forget he has a blue bed and blue blankie and blue comforters and blue sheets. I think, perhaps, the boy likes blue.
I'm going with purple. I've never had a purple room before. Actually, I don't ever recall painting anything purple. I love the color and can't wait to get accessories for my room to pull it all together. Once I do the walls, I'll hang stuff in my room too. I just don't see a point doing it now. I'll just have to take it all down again.
I'm having a few people over for a bbq on Saturday and am starting to feel like the inner-hostess I am again. I love haing gatherings with friends and family. I love having kids running around, screaming too loud, hearing laughter from the next room, sering great meals and desserts (cause really, what is a gathering without dessert?). There's something about friends, family and food that is a wonderful combination. Just cross your fingers that it doesn't rain!
So when I'm in town, I have to drop off the money for my insurance, return a blouse (that I love but it litterally fell apart after it's first washing!), return a pant & skort to walmart (hope they take it...I bought it Quesnel and tossed the receipt), get some pretty shoes, find a transformer dumptruck (which I think my son made up but I'm not sure), pick up a few groceries, buy my wall hangings and other necessities, and I think that may be it. Oh, and drop the car off to get serviced by 9am. Which means I have to have me and my son ready to go by 7am at the latest.
I am so happy about living here. Not that I didn't appreciate living with my folks....but I'm almost 30 y.o. time to leave the nest again, don't cha think? I love the simple things of being able to leave dishes in the sink, or leave my clothes in the dryer, or walk around without a bra on. Oh yeah baby, bra-less rocks! Same goes for walking around in just a t-shirt. Simple pleasures like that make the rent all worthwhile. Then add that I can have my friends over anytime, or that I'm now the only one parenting my child after 6pm, oh and that I make what I want when I want for supper. I've already lost 5 lbs and I've only been here a week (figures tho, I finally like my body and now I'm losing weight without even trying.....bye bye booty).
Anyway, my trips are going well and everything else seems to be falling in-line. I know I'm going to get shot for this but I can't wait fo Christmas! I was sitting here one night in the semi-dark thinking about where I'll put the tree that I don't have, and where the decorations will go that I haven't bought. I'm going all out this year for Christmas (not presents, decorations). I will have the Christmas I've envisioned for so long and now can do on my own. Ok, ok. I'll stop with the Christmas talk. For now!
The snow has stopped now (woot!) and I should be waking my snuggle-bunny from his slumber (aka coma). He needs to be in bed early tomorrow to help prevent melt-downs in the city tomorrow so he needs to be up early today. And I need to get my morning started because I have lots to do!
Have a great day everyone! Blog ya later!
4月19日 I'm moving! Whoo!Yes! I'm moving! I got a townhouse for the first of May and I couldn't be more excited! Although, I gotta say, I'm not ready for this yet. I was expecting to move around or after June. I don't have anything packed and now I'm moving in a week and a half. Holy!
Even my son is excited. He keeps telling me what to bring and what we "need" to buy. As in, we "need" a transformer/monster truck/race track/fruit roll up/bear paws. LOL. I'm so glad he's not the only one packing!
So this week, I've been at my gf's house watching her daughter at nights. This girl is soooo smart! Holy! She is totally great at copying what you say-almost getting it right the very first time. Cole loves being over there and asked if we could move in there instead of the townhouse. Haha.
I can't wait to be moved in and have the place feel like home. I've been living out of my suitcase for the past two weeks (business trip and babysitting) and it's starting to get a bit much rushing from one place to the other. Now I've added a week of packing and a week of moving (don't forget cleaning!). *phew* Tired already!
And I'm already bugging my boss to let me go on another trip right away. Just for a few days up North. I want to get some cash set aside for emergencies. I have a bit but it's not near as much as I'd like to have to fall onto. I'd like to eventually have 5 months worth of pays in my savings "just in case". But that'll take me 6 months of saving. Oh well, gotta start somewhere! And then there's Christmas.........(yes, I said the "C" word this early-get over it).
But all in all, things are going wonderfully. Busy, but wonderful. My son went to his first "meeting" for school next year and I actually knew some of the kids/parents so that's good news. Cole had a blast there and is telling everyone that he goes to school now.
And that's it for now. I'm sure I'll have lots of hilarious stories and frustrated moments to share as I start to move! Have a good one everyone!
4月14日 I'm baaaack....So I've been neglecting my space for quite some time now. It wasn't done intentionally. I even brought my laptop with me on my last few business trips hoping that I could do some blogging. Ha! For whatever reason, I couldn't get onto the net. I was connected but I couldn't get messenger or the internet to open. What a pain!
So here's the quick synopsis of my life: I've been on the road and signed a few agents (not near as many as I had planned), spent the last three weekends in with my son, gone to the city every weekend for the last 3 weeks (Cole in tow), started looking for a place to rent, and bought a couch and chair for my new place.
Cole is excited to move (as am I) and thinks we're getting a dog (a great dane no less) as soon as we move. Ok. The dog thing is partly my fault as I did say that we were going to get a Great Dane (my fave choice of doggies) but I didn't mean as soon as we move. I meant in, like, 2 years. Try telling that to a 4 year old....
On my last trip, I was in Kamloops, Kelowna, Osoyoos, and the like. It was beautiful! Green grass, open toed-shoes, tank tops. Ahhhh, spring has finally arrived. Ummm, but wait. I get back home and what do I find? There's still a 5 foot pile of snow outside my window. It even flurried today! When does spring start here?
Over the past few months ( I believe I mentionned this in previous blogs), I've gained about 30lbs. There a many factors why. At first it bothered me. I mean, helloo? I was a wonderful 107lbs. Little butt, no thunder thighs. But as time has passed, I have come to like the extra weight. I'm not overweight by any means; I still have small boney wrists and you can see the bones across my chest. I do, however, have booty and boobies now and I like it. My mom asked me if I was gonna "keep" the weight. Haha. Yeah, I think I will.
Cole is getting huge! I can't believe how much he's grown. And he's so much easier to deal with (hyperness aside of course). He's even absorbing numbers and letters. I tried to teach him but he just gets frustrated and cries so I let him pick it up in other areas instead of a "classroom" type setting. Yes, I'm a proud mama.
Here's a cute story: When I was over at my girl's house one day, T's daughter started crying so Cole started running into her room. When I stopped him and asked what he was doing, he replied "I'm gunna get the baby a toy to make her feel better." AWWWW! I then told him he was a sweetheart and Cole's response? "Yup! I am!". Didn't my girl and I just die laughing? And sure enough, Cole brought out a fuzzy brown bear that makes noises to distract the child. And it worked! (To Cole's future wife-you're welcome for the sensitive, helpful, problem solving man I've groomed for you.)
But that's it. No boys ringing my phone, no crazy roadtrips, no big projects on the go. Pretty quiet here. And I gotta say, it's quite relaxing! Now if I could only find a place to move into....I'm patient. I can wait for something to turn up. I'm just excited to have my own place again and have dinner parties or the whole weekend to spend with just me and Cole. Ahhhh...how marvelous!
Ciao!
3月13日 Catching UpOkay, Okay. I know. I've been sooooo lazy lately! I've gone on my trip and had taken some pics but I've since lost the bottom holder of the battery on the camera and can't download the pictures without it. The trip was alot of driving, alot of walking and alot of talking!
I went to 11 towns and opened 7 agents. I have one pending. That's pretty darn good! I couldn't believe how easy it was. The only thing I didn't like was that at the end of the night, I had oodles of time to sit around and do nothing. I wish I knew someone in each town so I'd have something to do! The business I was going to were usually only open until 5 or so, meaning that I had from supper on to sit in a hotel room and watch tv. I really just wanted to keep going! If I didn't have to wait for these places to open then next day, I think I could have it everyone of these towns in 3 days. As it was, I did them in 3 days with one extra day at the begining for rest and one extra day at the end for rest. All in all, I am quite pleased how everything turned out.
Last Friday was my birthday so the girls got together and threw me a party Saturday night. First mybest friend took me out to dinner with another one of our friends accompaning us. Then it was time for jello shooters at her place! At about 10:30 or 11, we headed to the bar. Ok, so you have to know that b-day parties in this group are themed. We arrived at the bar wearing bunny ears and drank and danced for a bit. That is, until the place had to shut down early cause of the time change! UGH! It's my birthday! That's not fair!
So our solution? Go to the only other bar in town and stay until closing. I had a blast! I must admit thought, I was a wee bit tipsy from the 20 jello shooters, wine, slings and shots so I don't remember exactly who was there but the place was packed! But I do know that I had fun!
And to top it all off, my friends all gave me such wonderful presents (which is totally unnecessary btw)! My son was a bit disappointed though. He was hoping I'd get Transformers for my birthday gifts and said that I have to tell the girls that's what they have to get me next year! LOL
So between my shopping trip, er, I mean business trip, party and kid, I've been busy. Oh and I'm planning on moving out in June. No, I can't buy-my credit is trashed thanks to me. But at least this is a step in the right direction towards total indepenace, right?
Gotta go! Ciao!
2月20日 Doin' nothin'Ok, ok, ok. I know. I've been gone for awhile from blog-land. My bad. I'm not busy-just lazy. I haven't been doing anything. Seriously. I've been going to work and then going home. I haven't done a thing.
My son has been a bit under the weather but he is still the best kid I've ever seen (ok-maybe a bit biased). he has been acting out less and less and has become quite sweet. He's always been nice to others; mom gets the brunt of every storm!
I went tanning yesterday and it's the first time in a year. Seeing that I was in a rush, I never thought of removing my necklace (which has a pendant of a dragonfly on it). So I think that at this juncture, all who know me knows what happened next. For those of you who need to know more....here I go (get your laughter ready!)... I got burned. I am so red and itchy! It's just on my chest and tummy. But the dragonfly pendant was just below my neck. Now I have a white spot where it rested. My mom says it looks like a cross. Cole said it looks like an angel (awww...I like his version better-he's soooo cute!). Either way, I have this white spot about 1cm wide x 2cm long square in the middle of my upper chest. LOL!
 Now, you can't tell me that's not funny!
I'm going on my business trip next week and will be gone until March 2 or so. Depending on the roads, I might be back on Thursday or perhaps Saturday. Yahoo maps show that it'll take 39+ hours drving. That's just stoping and starting. Walking all over the 14 different towns will be exhausting but I can't wait to go at the same time. I'm gonna take pics evereywhere I go and post them later on when I return.
My only problem is what do I do when my iPod runs out of batteries? I don't have anyway to recharge it. Ugh. I'll have to live through it I guess. that is, until I buy an iPod car hook-up so I can charge and listen to my iPod at the same time!
Well, time to eat lunch! Gotta go before the phone rings and I'm stuck again! Have a great couple of weeks! Ciao...
2月5日 A baby sister for ColeI sat down with my son the other day while he was watching his dvd. While watching Over the Hedge for the millionth time isn't my cup of tea, I sat with him and we talked. Soon his interests wained back to Hammy the freaky-hyper squirrel. So I pulled my newest Parenting mag out and started to read. There was a pic of a cute baby smiling for some advertisment (aren't those kind of books always filled with the happiest of happy babies?) and my son mummbled something. I asked him to repeat it. My son has asked me for a baby sister so he can be a big brother. Now isn't that something? The last time he saw me with a baby, he told me that I wasn't allowed to bring "it" home because he's already my baby. I wish I could do that for him but, alas, he'll have to suffer by being the only child who gets everything he could ever want (well, besides the sister!).
I've been feeling a bit down lately. Not depressed just misplaced. I'm finally getting on the financial track and things are looking good there. My problem is that I want my own place. Don't get me wrong, I've got a sweet deal living with my parents. When I have to work, I don't wake up my child or fight to get him ready. If I want to run to the store for a forgotten item, I dash out leaving Cole with Mom and Dad. I don't worry about the rent, heat, or buying the meaningless toiletpaper (it's not meaningless unless you don't have any I guess!). But I want to worry about that stuff.
I miss having my own place. My own fortress of solitude, a hang out for my friends, a having huge dinner celebration, a cupcake marathon with my son, a playdate place. You know? I love having my own independance and it's killing me that now I have some money in my pocket that I haven't started "house" hunting yet. I know that in reality, there's no way i can afford a place on my own yet. But in MY reality, I'm already painting the walls, and opening the windows (it's summer in my reality too).
Plus, I will not rent anymore. I did that for 6 months and got nothing out of it. I want to buy a townhouse and call it my own. So that means I have to have a downpayment too. And my credit has been totally trashed since I left my ex husband so I'm not sure if I could get a place even if I could afford one.
Everyone has a dream, I know. But I've f*cked mine up so many times, I'm just not sure it'll happen. I know, I won't always live with my parents. One day, I'll be 70 or so and by then, they would have passed on and left the house to me and my brother. If not, I'm sure Cole will have a granny suite for me, right?
I just want to have our (Cole and I) own place. I want to have a puppy for him which will turn into a dog for me. I want him to have his friends come over from school for some snacks and playtime. I mean, my parents won't care if he has friends over for a few hours or even the night. But how cool is that to have your friends dropped at your grandma's house cause your mom can't afford to move out? Ugh. I don't want that emabrassment for him.
Alright, alright. Enough of the pitty party. I'm just saying that this is one of the reasons why I'm not my chipper self as of late. It's been weighing on my mind. Maybe it's cause spring's comming. Hell, I don't know.
Other than that, nothing has changed. Life is still great, my kids is happy and healthy, my parents are the best and my friends are the neatest. And so I guess that's it. Ciao!
1月22日 Sick but smilin'Well, it's been awhile since I've last blogged. I've driven to another town at 6am and back again at 6pm for work. I've ran around the house like a complete loon playing with my son (laughing the entire time!), and I've come down with the most icky feeling (aka-barfing my brains out) from what I'd assume was food poisoning.
Other than that, things have been pretty lame and I'm totally enjoying it. Cole and I have been doing our routine of bathtime and storytime. He gets to pick out a book every night and we read "together" (which means he tells me what happens and then I get to read the book). Then Cole talks me into another book and then another! After I read the millionth book, the lights go off and we cuddle for a bit while he tells me stories about his day or what he's dreams or what he wants to do tomorrow. There's nothing better than spending time with him.
Life has been treating me so wonderfully lately. I have a great boss who lets me use the company car to get back and forth to work, my parents are always here to take care of me and my child (aside: when I was horibbly, monstrously sick on Saturday I came straight home from work and crashed for 22 hours straight in my bed. My parents took care of my son so I could sleep off whatever it was that I had - which I still say is food poisoning. My mom kept checking in on me and my dad made me soup. Who gets that anymore? ), and my son is an absolute gem. I'm even seeing my bank account go from less than zero to actual money! I can't wait to pay off my visa and get my life back in order (which seems that I'm on the right track now!).
And what's another wonderful thing happening tonight? Why, the tv show Heroes, of course! I've missed this show so much since it's been gone. This is the only show that I make time for. Yes, I love all the CSIs. Shark? I'll take it when it's on and I'm not tired. Desparate Housewives makes me die laughing. How I Met Your Mother leaves me in stitches. But do I make time to see these shows? No way! Like I said, Heroes is the only show that keeps me waiting with baited breath. Ohhh. It just showed previews for next week and I got chills. Chills! Wow, when was the last time something gave me the chills (besides the flu)?
But now that my fave show has ended, I must retire. I look like crap and need more sleep than I have time for. Good night all! 1月9日 Holiday Pudge-GO AWAY!Ok. So I totally pigged out this holiday season. This is the first time I've eaten the entire Christmas
meal (I was a vegetarian for 14 years, remember?). It was weird chowin' down on turkey. Good
but weird. I wanted to try all the flavours that I've said no to
for the last 14 years. And boy, I should have paced myself.
I have this addiction for chicken balls, cheeseburgers (with bacon of course!), turkey, and bacon.
I've also allowed myself to (foolishly) eat with reckless abandon; figuring
that I'd eventually get my fill and slow down.
I got my fill. But it was for filling out my pants. I've gained weight
and it's all around my hips/stomach/thighs. It's horrible. I never gave it a second thought,
eatting all this food. I've always eaten like this before. Ha! But it was on veggies and other good-
for you foods. Now it's fat, laden with fat, and dipped into gravy (which we all know is FAT!).
So I've come to the obvious solution to my problem. More veggies and less crap. I have to pay attention to what I eat and follow some common sense (I know: me and common sense? please). No eatting late at night. No deep fried stuff (ok maybe just chicken balls-the rest I can do without). Plan meals ahead of time.
And of course, I need to throw in some hard core booty bustin' moves and belly breakin' crunches.
I haven't really been doing any exercise except the heavy bag so my 4 pack abs have been covered in burgers and fries. They're still there, just covered.
I will have them back.
I must say though, how easy gaining a bit of weight (10lbs) can depress you. I feel like a sloth and can feel the extra buldge around my mid-section when I sit, walk, pick something up.
Even my anorexic-esque wrists look almost normal. And that's not normal.
If there's one place I don't gain weight, it's my wrists (not since I became pregnant anyway).
I've already replaced my daily pot of coffee with water, made plans about snacks and
lunch for work. I have to head to the store to get some low-fat yummie food but I can wait until Wednesday; I have to exercise when I get home tonight.
I don't normally have to plan what I eat. The only time I have ever been on a diet was back in 2000
when I was getting married because the rude sales lady told me
that I was never gonna fit into my wedding dress (I had 3 months to go) and because
of the fabric, she couldn't let it out if she wanted to.
Well, not only did I fit but it was loose. HA!
So here I go. I should start seeing results in the next
two weeks or so. *GULP* I hope.
1月3日 Not Much to ReportSo the New Year has arrived and let me just say, it didn't come in with a bang. the girls and I went out Sunday night to the local sportsbar (dressed to the nines) and by 10:30pm, we were all itchin' to get home. I was going to C's house & we were making plans on splitting a pizza. Yummy! However, we stayed to usher in the new year and then food was served at 12:30am. That changed our tune. As soon as we ate, the group felt better.
Of course I had five-count 'em five- plates so I was quite full...but happy!
This guy kept dogging me even after my girl told him not to bother and I left everytime he came around. I admit it, I wasn't leaving the table on purpose but just the same, he should have got the idea. Anyway, the boy wouldn't get the hint and I ended up recruiting a faux-friend to play the part of boyfriend so maybe the dude would go if there was another rooster in the hen house. Of course, to complicate matters, the closest faux friend was K. He was ok with evereything and then after the dude FINALLY got the hint, K tells me that he was a dumb-ass (his words) for breaking up with me.
Ok, so I know he was drinking but I couldn't help but poke at him about it. How long has this been running thru his head? I knew he was a dumb-ass the moment he told me I was in love with him. Anyway, he walked me over to my girl's house and I told him to figure out what is going on in his self-absorbed head and call me. Not on Thursday, on Monday. Ok, so I gave him a day's rest as agreed upon due to his pending hang-over.
And did he call? No. SURPRISE! LOL
I'm not surprised. And it's ok. I actually find it amusing. Who wants to place a bet that he'll call tonight, seeing it's wings night 'n all? Besides, he teases me for not holding my booze when, in all actuality, I can still do 3 nights of partying and function with a half hour nap; K on (the other hand) doesn't get hammered often (not that I get hammered) so he likely needed an extra day to come out of it. Eh, no sweat off my back. I haven't decided if I'd take him back or not anyway. I've never done that before so we'll see.
But the night ended well and I have my energy back so I'm ready to go another round. It's amazing how food is an instant uplifting means of energy. Too bad I'm packin' on the pounds!
My boss was trying to be kind and said that my pants were perhaps shrinking, ah, then what about my boobs? That's the last place I gain weight so I KNOW it's time to watch the intake of the fatty crap. Bye bye my cheese encrusted burgers and fries. Aloha to the sour cream dips. Adiaos to those yummy entrees that (thank god!) are no longer being served!
Well, gotta go-work is picking up and I need to close this window. Later! 12月27日 1, 2, 3, 4...This is what I'm thankful forI'll try to make this short but I tend to ramble....
1. Christmas was great! My family (including my friend C) hung out from the morning of December 24th to the afternoon of the 26th. It was mostly in our jammies because all we did was eat, put toys together, eat, learn how the toys worked, did the dishes, eat supper, put the toys away, eat, go to bed. You get the idea. There were glamorous meals with wonderful conversation and a great time had by all. This is what Christmas is about for me. The family. Not the presents. Okay, maybe some of the food too-food is my friend. And I actually drank 1/2 bottle of wine on my own and didn't feel tipsy! Woohoo! Must have been due to all of that yummie sustance floating around in there.
2. My son is an angel. What happened when he walked into the living room and saw all of those sparkly presents? Did he tear into the like a little monster (which is what you expect for Christmas presents)? No. My son calmly walked out, looked at me and said," Mom, I have to give uncle B his present.". He was more concerned with everyone else getting their stuff than his own. And when he started opening his gifts, he was bewildered that we wanted him to rip the paper off and throw it on the floor. Cole was putting it all in a nice neat pile on the coffee end table until I took the scraps and tossed them into the air. He got the point then!
3. My family is the best gift I ever had and I'm so thankful to have them around. Without them, my life would mean nothing. The best part of the holiday was just sitting around stuffing our faces and throwing some words in there when we weren't chewing on something fatening. I love my family and am so damn lucky to have the people in my life that I do. I can't say it enough.
4. My hot pink iPod rocks. 'Nuff said.
5. I like my new hair cut but miss my hair for the simple fact I could pull it into a pony-tail and still look ok. Now I have no hair and can't wear a baseball cap 'cause I look like a boy. Other than that, I like it. I guess I can't be lazy anymore!
6. Being a mom is way cool. I can't beleive hpow awesome it is to have a child. There's nothing like it. I spent last night and tonight reading the new Curious George books to my son for storytime. They're something like 150pgs each and I read the complete book one night anf the other tonight. Naturally there's pictures but there's a bit of reading involved too-have to keep both mom and tot interested I guess!
7. I haven't any plans for New Year's Eve. I want to go out but a part of me would love to sit home and watch a movie in my jammies. I like going out nut it's the same old thing every time and I'd like to do something different just once. I must be getting old!
8. Totally off the subject but why do boys have to be so stupid? I mean, really now. Is there any need for it? If I hear one more time that because I have kid I'm looking for a daddy or that I want to settle down, I swear I'm gonna scream! What does one have to do with the other? I have learned from my past. Yes people, me-I learned something. A relationship is no place for my child. I did the whole thing with J and I still have my son talking about him and his son every once and awhile. I will not put my child through another round of that ever. He's in the prime age where this stuff sticks and I will not have my kid being used as a tool to "woo" me. Funny how my son is used as an excuse to stay away from me. At least it weeds the dumb-asses out.
And that's it. I'm off to slumber-land. Hopefully I'll have something worthy to write about before the weekend. This blog is kinda weak. Ciao!
12月20日 Another One Bites The Dust! (SING IT WITH ME NOW!)Well there goes my boyfriend. I knew we were going to break up & that we weren't made to last but man, the timing sucks! It all started with a text message that said we need to talk-ok that says it all. And when K and I met last night to "clear the air" (another clue! LOL!) I informed him that if he wants to talk with a girl from now on and he's not dumping them, not to use that phrase. Even after we've broken up, I'm still helping the guy out-that's a bit funny.
So the reason for the break up? K thought I was falling for him! He might have known he was wrong when I started laughing. Like I told him: I've only ben dating K for 2.5 months so far and that I don't know him well enough to fall in love with him. It was so ironic. K said that he felt hurt that I wasn't hurt-kinda backwards don't you think? I pointed out to him that he was breaking up with me cause I'm "in love" with him but he's upset that I'm not doing the drama cry thing because I don't love him (which is exactly what he wants but I guess not???).
At any rate, we broke up and went for a beer afterwards. Ok THAT was weird. He said it was the best breakup he's ever had & frankly it was mine too. While we were sipping our celebratory post-relationship fluids, he commented how things seem to be the same with us. I had to put in there that our convos might be the same but there's no good-night kiss anymore!
And I bestowed upon him the title of first guy to break up with me while dating. Ever. I've been the dumper in all relationships; up til now that is. K said that made him feel like shat and asked how I'd feel if he were the one to tell me that. Ummm, I've always been the dumper; not the dumpee, remember? I honestly don't care if I'm the first person to dump you; it doesn't change anything. You're still getting dumped. Same holds true in this case.
Plus I told K that I knew we were going to break up soon, just not now. He figured that I was going to dump him (trying to beat me to the punch?). I didn't have any of those thoughts but I did say that the likelyhood was that I would have dumped him-look at my track record.
Besides all that silly stuff, we ended the night as friends and that is pretty darn cool. Nice guy; just a bit deluded and self-inflated. Totally my type!
Yesterday was my son's fourth birthday and he had a blast. C came over for supper and cake with ice-cream. Cole was wired for sound due to the gifts-wait til Christmas! I was going to take some pictures but totally forgot and remembered after his bedtime. Christmas will be different; pictures galore!
But I do have to go-I have to get ready for work and now I have to try to look good incase I go out in public....LET THE HUNT BEGIN! Just joking, this time I want to be hunted. I'll let you know how that turns out. LOL! Have a good one everybody! 12月15日 Not much going onWell this week has gone by pretty fast and Christmas is fast approaching. Work has been pretty slow and I'm looking forward to having a few days off next week to get the rest of my crap together for the holidays. There's so much more to do than simply buy presents and hand them out. There's house clening, decorating and fitting everyone together for the holidays. Plus Cole's birthday is this coming Tuesday and I need to make a cake for him and get a nice present for my well-deserving child.
It doesn't look like I'll be having that second job after all. The owner hasn't called me about working any shifts yet and he knows that I'm not working on Saturday this week. Tthis is the second time that I've tried to work for him and it's not looking like I ever will. I really would have worked for him but I'm not going to do it now. K said that he was going to screw me over the second time & he was right! That man is smart.
I went out a few times this week to spend time with K and eventhough I was out pretty darn late and worked in the morning, I had a great time. Spending time with K is so easy and laid back. He says the same thing about me so I guess that's what makes it work. He is totally attentive and sweet and actually listens to me when I talk (a rare find!) and asks me about my day (which is a big thing for me). I'm seeing alot of potential here......Hey! When a man shows you his paycheque for no reason and talks about the future with you in it, it's a pretty good sign, don't cha think?
My life is going well and I'm pretty happy right now. If I could only have my shopping done and figure out what to do about supper tonight, life would be set for me. Such a tough life, heh? Until next time.... 12月11日 A quick synopsisWell I've put in a few days of work at my new job. At first I wasn't sure I was going to like it but now that I'm getting the hang of it, it's actually fun! My boss is pretty laid back and easy to deal with but he's gone this week and I've accepted another job at the restaurant (yes, again). Now I'm going to be working two jobs; hoping to make some money. I'm going to make the restaurant job a secondary one (my bread & butter is my first job) but don't know how this is all going to work out. The great thing about both jobs is that they're day jobs. Yeeeha!
Cole is doing wonderfully. Loud; but wonderfully. He screams all night when I get home from work. It's pay-back for being gone all day, I know. He's not evil when he screams. He's just so animated and loud that I can't calm him down. He's very happy and is good when you tell him things but he's so darn loud! I love my little man! Even with his yapping I can't help but smile. He's the light of my life.
Christmas is almost here and everyone is blogging about wrapping gifts, that they're done the shopping lists, or that "it's the best time of the year!". Humbug! I haven't bought one-not one- gift (I haven't been paid yet!) and am starting to feel the panic. I don't get paid until December 21. Crunch time or what!?!?! I know what I want to get everyone so at least the hard part is done-I just need to spend, spend, spend. *Sigh*.
I've been having fun hanging out with the girls and basically have been staying home otherwise. Between work, my son, and the usual mom stuff I haven't had time for much else. I'm not so much body tired as I am brain drained. I almost want to fade away from everyone right now and just be left alone. Maybe it's the winter blues, female hormones, or feeling depressed about not being able to support myself. Whatever the reason, I just don't feel like going out or "partying" it up with the girls that much anymore. I have fun, don't get me wrong, I just haven't been enjoying it as much lately.
On a lighter note, my friends all seem to be having a great time lately and that in it's self makes me happy. I'm just a sucker for happy people and their flashy smiles! What can I say? It's contagious!
That's all for now. I don't have anything else going on but when I do, I'm sure you'll all know! Ciao! 12月7日 I'm It?So I've been tagged by Kiki. Sorry, this chain ends here as everyone I know in blogland has already done this except me! Here goes.... six weird things about me....
1. I have a birth mark on my tounge. Yes, it's a birthmark. No, it's not a sore, a bad taste bud, or canker sore. It has been there since day one and is a white, round mark on the tip of my tounge. No one ever sees it-no one's looking!
2. I can stand, walk, run, skip on the knuckles of my toes. I've done it since I could walk. If you see me with my shoes off, you'll likely see this while I'm sitting down as well.
3. I have a touch of OCD. Among other things, I can't have a shower and notice there's dirt on the walls without cleaning it WHILE I'm still in the shower. Sometimes I'll clean the shower and then finish washing my hair after.
4. I'm blonde but prefer to be a red-head or brunette. Everyone says blondes have more fun but I'm just not seeing it!
5. When exercising, I have to feel more than "the burn". I have to feel like I'm over my limit and can't possible do another crunch/kick/punch in order to feel that I've worked my body hard enough. If my hands aren't bruised from the heavy bag, then I keep punching until they do. I've always been like that and have almost puked in fitness class a few times. That was then....
6. I have this amazing ability to ignore the blantly obvious. If you hurt me, I might ignore it. And I'd likely ignore it for some time if you kept doing it, until one day I've had enough and the next thing you know I'm gone. That works for lovers, friends, family-everyone. I might try to work things out at first but if the 3rd party doesn't want to help fix things then I just go back to doing the above and *poof* I'm gone!
There. Six things about me that you didn't know. Some of it is freakish, some of it is silly. Man, I have a million more weird things now that I'm thinking about it! But please do me a favor-if you read this and see me out, try not to make it to obvious that you're looking for my birthmark on my tounge or waiting for me to roll my toes under my foot so my weight is on my knuckles. Or I won't tell you any more things next time I'm tagged! Later! 12月6日 Being HappySo I've been out of blogland for some time now but really don't have much going on. Between work, my son, and working out I haven't had time to sit at the computer for very long. I've started working out again and feel pretty darn god about that. I've missed hitting the gym but I just didn't know how much until I started up again.
Cole is doing great and is full of energy. He talks non-stop and sometimes it drives me crazy! I guess it's better than having a reserved child? It amazes me how much he absorbes. Yesterday morning he told me something about his legs and he used "left leg", "right leg" correctly. Man! I get that screwed up still! He's already smarter than me! Yikes!
K and I are stil going strong (2 months already!) and he's a pretty darn good guy. Eventhough everything is going well, I still have my jaded ideas about the lenght of relationships (biten once, twice shy is the saying-what if you've been bitten twice?).
This past weekend I ran into my ex. He tried to play Mr. Nice Guy (we were in public of course). He asked me what I've been up to and I told him, "Avoiding you at all possible costs.". He then looked at me, stunned, and got up and walked away! Perfect! If that's all it takes to get rid of him when I'm out then I'll use it. After all he's done to me, my friends, and everyone else I surely don't feel like playing nice. Don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for a fight or drama or confrontation. I just want him to leave me and everyone else alone.
The job is going good. My boss is pretty nice and quite flexible about what hours I work. I spent the whole day on my own yesterday and feel comfortable doing so again. The day went in spurts with lulls and crazy stupid busy. The toughest part of the job is not getting cut with the file-folders! Ouch! Those REALLY hurt!
All in all, I've been quite busy but I'm enjoying it. It's been nice having a "purpose" (not that being a stay at home mom doesn't have purpose because I still wish I could do that). I thank my lucky starts everyday that I have the life I do. My family is always there when I need them, I have friends who care about me, I have a boyfriend who actually treats me good, and my son is healthy, smart, and incredible. What else could I ask for? Ok, maybe a million dollars, but who's going to give me that? LOL. Have a great day everyone-I know I will! Ciao! 11月27日 The Week's Round UpWell, this past week has been good. I've spent time with friends, ate like crazy, and spent time with my son. I had a good time at my girlfriend's birthday party until my boyfriend's ex decided to spaz out infront of everyone. She freaked out at closing time at the bar. I know she's not the brightest bulb in the pack but she was smart enough to stand behind me so I couldn't turn around without her having the advantage of gravity (I was sitting, she was standing). It was quite a scene. When she started, S told her to stop and wait until she was sober. Yeah. Well that went over like a lead fart! T (the ex woman) freaked out and started screaming profanities at S, who then stood up to knock T's block off. Thank God G grabbed her and told T to knock it off. Same response from T (at least you can say she's true to form).
G told her that she was the only one holding S back. I wanted to say something too but I knew that if I had stood up (I wanted to go to the bathroom), T would have thought it was an agressive move and hit me. Likewise if I just turned around in my chair. So I just sat there like an idiot while my friends gave her a what for. I knew that T was looking for a fight because every time I turned around, she was behind me or staring at me from afar. I don't know what her problem is. Yes, I'm dating her ex but come on! I haven't said anything against her, we don't discuss her, no one from the group does anything to her (that I know of), and I didn't cause her marriage to break up. Geez!
K thought it was funny but I don't. I found it embarassing for everyone. No one wants to hear someone catting out another person! What a buzz kill! Then after T left, I still needed to go to the washroom so I asked N to go with me as a "bodyguard". LOL! N said that she's not much of one but like I told her, I just need to know if T shows up in the bathroom and for N to hold my purse. I didn't even put my coat on until we were walking out the door because I didn't know where T was and the coat is so bulky that I couldn't move if she came at me. Man, I don't want to fight anyone but I'm not dumb enough to think I won't get hit anyway! I kinda wish S would have hit T because she deserved it for the way she acted. She even made a threat to K about their son but I don't know if anybody else would have caught it because it was so consealed. But K did the right thing by not responding back to her. T might have hit him and then what? How would he defend himself without hurting her and looking like the bad guy? Maybe that's what she wanted. I don't know. I just don't want it to happen again. Ick.
Anyway, the weather here is so damn cold! It was minus 40 something last night and we were without power. The whole town was. I feel so bad for the people who had to brave this weather and the raging wind to get out power back on! I couldn't begin to imagine being out there! The tempurature is now -23 but I don't know what the windchill is. It's gotta be bad by the sound of it whipping around the house! I'm so envious of L right now! She's on her way to Cuba! Soak it up girl 'cause you're coming home to an ice land freeze zone!
I have my first training tonight for this loan company. Then I'll be working with my boss for the rest of the week ( I think that's the plan?). There's such a good pay out! And the bonus to me is the travelling. I get to see BC and eat an entire meal while it's hot the first time! Yeeeeha!
I should go though. I have to shower and run some errands. Plus Cole wants on the computer to play his game. Have a good day everyone! Ciao! 11月22日 Let's try this againHere we go again. I have another job offer. It's for a loan company as a sales manager and it sounds promising. However, I'm not getting excited this time. If I actually end up working for this guy then fine; but I'll believe it when I see it.
He'll be calling me today or tomorrow with the contract to look at and I will be travelling once a month. The rest of the time I'll be here (I'm guessing?). I get a company vehicle (which is great considering walking across BC would suck!) and I don't know what the hours/pay is yet.
So it sounds like I have a job again. Good. I hope it works out this time and that I like the job. So many employers forget that it's not just the employee who needs to fit the job, but the job that needs to fit the employee. I easily did the job at the insurance place in town; however the unspoken "after hours" work incorporated with missing lunches and yelling clients didn't suit me. Funny though. This guy asked me if I was fired when he looked at my resume and saw the insurance place on it. Fired? Me? WTF? Maybe I don't know this guy's sense of humor or something but he looked serious. Why would you ask such a thing in the first 5 minutes of the interview? Kinda weird. Plus he asked me if I copied my profile from the internet somewhere. Do I look dumb? Of course not! Man, I must have looked like a miscreant even with the dress clothes! It doesn't really matter anyway. He's offered me the job and I'm taking it!
Other than that, life is pretty quiet. Cole is growing like a weed and can't stop talking! Just like his mom. The meat-eating thing is going ok. I have eaten pretty much everything except steak (which we're having tonight). I don't know if I'll be able to handle eating steak but I'm gonna give it a try. I'll let you know how it goes! Later!
11月20日 Back to Square OneWell, I don't have a job. Turns out that the woman I was replacing isn't moving now. So, yet again, I am unemployed. And I was sooo excited to finally have a job and make some money. This sucks royally. Grrrrr.
K said that he would talk to the guy who runs the local tire shop as they are hiring. I've already gone in to put my resume in and told the guy, D, that I've changed tires before on my ex husband's race car so it's not like I'm a complete tool and don't know what's involved. D told me that he hired a guy and isn't hiring any more for awhile. Not what I heard from one of his wife's close friends and that's not what K heard. K plays darts with him and has been recruited by D to play softball this summer for D's team (by D himself). I asked K what he could possibly say that would change D's mind. Come on. I know that guys in the labour industry look at me and see a scrawny white girl and throw my resume out as soon as I walk out the door. Unless K tells him that I've suddenly turned into a 200lb. man, there's nothing to be done.
I admit it. I'm pretty peeved at the whole thing. There is always the option for employers to can my ass if I can't do the job. No one will give me the chance to work for them. I know I can do it. Everyone I talk to says they know I can do the job at the mills. I don't know. Maybe they're blowing smoke up my butt because they don't want to hurt my feelings. It's just frustrating, you know?
I am thankful for my family and the support they've given me. I'm glad I have friends who I can lean on and yap to. I do have a good life, I just wish that I could do things on my own. I'm an independent person and I have a hard time having others take care of me. If I can't do something on my own, then I don't want to do it. I want to pay my own way. I want to work hard and accomplish things I can be proud of. How come no one else sees that in me? Again, grrrr.
Alas, there's nothing that I can do to change the current position I'm in so I'll just have to go back to square one and wait. Waiting sucks. Hopefully, I get a call from a mill this week. Doubtful. Later.
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